My motivation right now?

The fact that I am not coming in dead last, many minutes after everyone else....

I refuse to be last again!!

For today's WOD and my time, see below...

Monday stunk.... But Wednesday came...

I just couldn't bring myself to go Monday. I was PMSing, and I just didn't want to move.

That attitude spilled over to today. But I made myself go. And of course I'm glad I did.

We did an Amrap workout which is 15 minutes doing as many rounds as you can.

5 dead lifts
7 pushups
9 box jumps

I did 10 plus 4.

I've been struggling with my eating. I'm still doing the six small meals a day but I'm over it. I need some Mac n cheese or mashed potatoes and gravy. I need a chicken fried steak or a pizza. I allow myself either a cheat meal once or twice a week. It's Wednesday night and Sunday lunch. I didn't cheat tonight and I should be proud but I need some carbs. Oh I need some carbs. I know this is mental and I'll get through it.

I have an issue with weighing myself. I don't want to become obsessed with a number. I know me. If I don't lose significant amounts of weight each time I step on the scale I will just give up and quit. I have such a huge amount to lose I don't want to let a number stop this. I know I'm losing. I'm eating no sugars, no carbs, only filling my body with lean proteins and veggies with some fruit. I know that's good. And I know my clothes are fitting different.

I've only been at the Crossfit thing for 3 weeks. So I know I still am new at it. Thy say it takes 4 weeks for someone to notice a change in themselves. I'm praying I see something big. They say it takes 8 weeks for friends to notice and 12 weeks for the rest of the world to notice. I just need to hang on 9 more weeks. If I can do that.... I know I can keep on.

I feel it....

Y'all the weight is coming off. I still jiggle but I'm not as jiggly when I run. My workout clothes are less tight and I feel good.

I needed some confirmation tonight.... And I got it.

Completed the below WOD in 12:58 and for the first time, I wasn't dead last!

Last night

Last night was one of those nights where I did everything I could to NOT go workout. I really wasn't feeling it. I went. I did it. But really was just blah. I know what I'm doing is good and good for me but sometimes I just don't want to do it.

Last night was a cheat night. I chose spaghetti. I didn't enjoy it. I literally can't eat as much as I used to stuff my face with and so that's good. It's crazy to think the bad stuff doesn't appeal to me anymore.... All from eating right!

Cheat Meal

I've been eating a fairly strict paleo diet since starting crossfit. The only exception is the yogurt I have for breakfast.

I'm allowing myself one cheat meal per week right now so I feel some sort of freedom and also for the sake of my sanity.

So Sunday I was craving Chuys and their delicious dip. So we went and I had quesadillas. After about 5 bites I was sick. Like sick. Could puke sick.

And it's then that it hit me. I've always eaten until stuffed. And eating whatever I wanted. I moaned all the way home. I was miserable. I felt gross. Eating paleo makes me feel good. I'm not stuffed. It's not heavy. I eat and feel I could run to Lubbock and back.

My body has been crying out far too long at what I've been feeding it. So thankful to have finally figured this out.....

Brutal

That might be the only word to describe last nights workout.

We started with warmup that was stretches and sprinting. Then we went inside and did some bar work. Then came the workout.

As a group we squatted, kettle belled, burpeed, and sat up. You had to work
For 30 seconds at each exercise. When you were done the next person in the group went. We did two rounds of each exercise. It was hard y'all.

Then we rowed as fast as we could for 100 m. I did good. And one of the Coaches Shawn was in my ear yelling 'go go go! Get in the 130's. You got this. Go!'.

I haven't been pushed that hard since I was in high school and a varsity athlete on a nationally ranked team. It was hard. But I loved it.

It's good to be pushed.

Helen...

Helen is a type of WOD. Apparently she's tough. I didn't realize it because they are all tough workouts. So....

Helen was a 400 m run, 21 kettle bell swings, and 12 pull ups. Then repeated 3 times. I completed Helen in 19:35.

The boot campers did this workout 6 weeks ago and they all finished 2 minutes better so I'm hoping I see those same results in 6 weeks.

Last night was equally as tough. I'm amazed at what my body will take in 15-20 minutes. It takes a beating. A brutal beating. But I know that I only have to bust it for that long and it's over.

Y'all I feel great. I sleep better, I feel good after workouts, I'm eating no sugar or starches, and yogurt is my only source of dairy twice a day.

I've gone to six small meals and it's amazing how my body has already responded. In this week alone I feel great.

Crossfit isn't for everyone but I love it and am thankful for it!!